I don’t think there is any higher meaning or purpose to life, we just exist here for a little while. I don’t personally see that as a negative. My view is that we are free to pursue our interests, and to create our own purpose for ourselves. Try different things, find hobbies, read books, listen to music, and so on. See what things you really enjoy doing, try do more of that. My experience is that creating things, or improving yourself in some way tends to be rewarding.